Whilst at a networking event many years ago I saw a lady talk about her experiences with Imposter Syndrome. This was the first time I’d heard this phrase but boy did it ring true.
After years of working in super competitive and brutal environments I was finally working in a role I loved as a Talent Acquisition Manager for a successful tech company in Manchester. BUT my anxiety was at an all time high, my confidence at an all time low. Why? I loved my job, I had a super supportive employer who believed in my abilities, fantastic work colleagues and friends, so why didn’t I believe in myself?
Before I moved to London I worked for the same company in Grimsby for nearly ten years, I knew the industry like the back of my hand and was super confident in my abilities in my role there.
Moving, on my own to the big city was a massive leap.
I moved to London expecting it to be where dreams were made. Don’t get me wrong I had an amazing time down there and made some unforgettable memories. But I also worked in roles that weren’t a good fit, in environments that weren’t right for me, it really knocked my confidence. It wasn’t just work, but also being in unhealthy relationships and environments too. I took a lot of knocks, each one slowly chipping away at my confidence and my self-belief.
Deciding to move back home in June 2018 was one of the best decisions I ever made.
I moved back from Manchester and London a totally different person to the girl who moved out of Cleethorpes nearly 9 years ago. I don’t regret it as it’s made me the person I am today and I wouldn’t be where I am now if it had not been for those experiences, good and bad.
My confidence has come on leaps and bounds since moving back home, my blog has been a massive part of that, as has my fantastic job that allows me to work with some amazing people. I have my family close by who support me and my wonderful partner who is always cheering me on.
I am confident to say I am over the Imposter Syndrome stage of my life, for me it meant looking at my life as a whole, what inspires me, who inspires me, what brings me happiness and understanding myself.
Have you ever experienced Imposter Syndrome in your daily life? How do you try and combat those feelings?